There are a lot of realizations in the process of mothering a baby with the ‘c’ word.
What goes through your head when your baby girl (literally baby) is about to undergo a surgery? How do you feel? Are you nervous? Are you relieved? Are you…
I don’t know. Honestly. I don’t think I’ve faced the music yet. I don’t know how I feel. If I think about it too much, I get freaked out. If I don’t think about it, I don’t feel prepared.
How am I supposed to feel? I don’t know.
This is what I know:
- On Wednesday, June 10 she will have a monster that has taken away her first 12 months of her life will be demolished.
- On Friday, June 12 she will turn 1 year old.
- Sometime after the surgery, she will undergo 2 more cycles of chemo.
After steps 1-3 are done, she will live happily ever after.
God’s got this.